This is what it feels like to be played the fool.
I thought I could trust you, I thought that you actually told the truth this time.
You cheated on me before, and we broke apart. You said you never wanted to see me again, but then you suddenly came back for more, you came back to me, begging me to believe that you had changed, that you were a different man now, that you had learned your lesson, that you would never do anything to hurt me again.
You promised me so many things, you promised me the stars, but you were but a firefly, burned out quicker than you came back.
You said you loved me more than anything, and I started to believe you, I started to trust you. But all of a sudden I saw the signs of something, I couldn’t quite tell what was wrong, but you did stuff, that reminded me of back when you were unfaithfull to me.
And I started to ask you why why why? Please tell me why you are acting so weird all of a sudden. But you yelled at me, and called me crazy. That I was fantasizing and making up things that weren’t there, that I was seeing ghosts…that I should just trust you, because you had been true to me all this time, in this our new life, and that you thought you had earned my trust, that I should make an effort to trust you more.
And I tried not to listen to my voice of sanity, I tried not to listen to all the signs I saw, and I told myself to trust you.
But yesterday, you were really weird, acting all violent against me in the morning, and then being all sweet and lovey dovey to me in the afternoon…until suddenly you wanted me to leave.
I found it kinda odd, that you all of a sudden just wanted me to leave, you had looked at a text message, and then you asked me to leave, because you had stuff to do, schoolstuff…
and I left without a fight, I said it was ok, that we’d be seeing eachother soon, and then I made you promise not to visit or have Sofie visit you.
I don’t feel good about this new friend of yours, you talk so much about her, like she’s some wonderful person..well, ofcourse I want you to have friends, but I don’t want those friends to be girls who steal your hear away from me. why do you stray from my side?? why couldn’t you just be true to me?
You promised…and yet…the promise were broken.
I tried calling you, and you said you were practicing the guitar, and couldn’t really talk to me.
So I hung up, and waited until later, when I called you again, but you didn’t want to answer me, I could hear on the way the phone stopped ringing, that you had hung up on me, and then you wrote me a message, telling me that you’d call me later, you just had to finish your homework, but you never called me back, so I called you up an hour later, and then you shot off your phone. I tried calling your home phone but you didn’t answer, and I took my stuff and went to your place, it takes an hour and a half to get there from me, but when I finally arrived, you weren’t there.
The lights were on in all of the house, and your bike was gone…
I could only conclude that you had gone somewhere, to sleep. without telling me.
I was sure that it was Sofie. I was sure of it, you were cheating on me again, with this new girl.
you left your house and went to her place around ten pm, I’m sure of it, because you usually always answer the phone when I call you, or you call me back, you never just send me a text message, like you did last night. you did it before, back on february 14th when you cheated on me with Tenna, you pretended that you were in a train on your way to me, and that you couldn’t answer the phone, because there is such bad connections there. but in reality you were with Tenna, you cheated on me and I was sure this was the same.
Suddenly I realised you must have been doing this since we got back from Japan, that you have been cheating on me for so long…I was stunned, I had truly believed that you had changed…that you wouldn’t treat me like that again..
I waited for an hour but you didn’t come back home, I called you several times but your phone was turned off. I imagined you with her, having sex, kissing her, giving her all that belongs to me.
I still see you sleeping next to her.
You turned your phone on at around 7.30 you usually never sleeps this late.
Did you shower with her? Did she taste good? HOW WAS IT TO CHEAT ON ME AGAIN?
You wrote me the most unlikely explanation I’ve ever heard.
You said, that you heard noices in the house, and that you had been scared to death by some kind of vision of a spirit or a ghost, that you saw in your house, and you just wanted to get away as fast as possible, so you took your bike and ran away. And you told me the reason you didn’t tell me, was that your phone was fucking up, and you couldn’t call,and then it went dead.
But how did you contact her then? how did you tell her that you were on your way?
You shut off your phone on purpose.
if what you’re telling me is true, then why didn’t you come to me? why didn’t you come to your girlfriend, why didn’t you call me and ask me to come save you?
why didn’t you borrow her phone and call me? or text me?
you say its because her phone was dead and that the extra phones was upstairs with her parrents and that you didn’t want to wake them up.
So you actually snuck into the house huh?
I don’t believe you
I don’t believe a word you’re saying…
You insist on not having done anything with her, you insist that you were true to me.
BUT I DON’T BELIEVE A FUCKING WORD YOU’RE SAYING!
YOU’RE LYING!
WHY ARE YOU LYING TO ME?
WHY!? what have I done to deserve this again? WHY?
this video describes what I think of you perfectly..
